Today is my 40th birthday.
I almost made it up until midnight last night. I aborted my mission to do so around 11:35. I admit, I started feeling a little anxious. Not about turing 40, but about letting go of my 30’s.
My 30’s were busy, fun, exciting…. predictable. When I turned 30 I was a newlywed and pregnant with my daughter. We had just bought a new home. It was such a brilliant time of my life. When I turned 30 I didn’t have any anxiety. I was on the path I wanted to be on. I knew what I wanted from my 30’s. Maybe even what was expected of them.
40 feels different.
This decade doesn’t have the same road map. I am done having children. I am done buying houses. Done knowing what is next. I have NO CLUE what my 40’s holds for me. At times I get butterflies in my stomach about it. At first I think it’s anxiety, when I really think about it though, it’s not. It’s an anxious excitement.
Yes, I said it. I am excited about being 40!
I’ve spent the last month counting down my birthday and celebrating the things that make me feel #ShamelesslyFeminine. One thing I do know is that 40 will bring more of that for me. I am finally feeling more comfortable in my skin than I have ever felt. I don’t mean that in a superficial way. I mean it in an all around knowing who I am sort of way. I am more confident in myself and my abilities to do and be what I want. It’s freeing.
I have also realized that being #ShamelesslyFeminine isn’t always easy. It’s not always a pair of shoes and a new lipstick (although sometimes it is!). #ShamelesslyFeminine is a feeling. It’s an emotion. It’s just like all other emotions. Sometimes you feel it more than others. Sometimes you lose touch with it completely and other times it just oozes out of your pores.
Today, on my 40th birthday, I feel many emotions. Happy, grateful, blessed, excited and yes… #ShamelesslyFeminine.
Hope you all have a beautiful day!